Monday, June 23, 2008

I'm still alive!




Hello to all (mainly Cousin Sarah)!




I've been MIA becasue all my talk before lead to NOTHING, and I was embarressed to admit it. Nonetheless, I got my haircut on Saturday and I am feeling great, so I just decided why not now? Actually I am self concious about the dark patch around the back of my neck, caused by IR and decided it was time. So, this morning I woke up at 6am and did my 20 minute TurboJam Cardio Party. Then when I got to work, I ate two scrambled eggs, 1 bacon and a cup of fresh strawberries. I am going to post a picture of my new hair, a picture of me in a sports bra and shorts and also my measurements. And Isaiah and I are going to start walking every night. I'm excited!



Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Beginning the change

So, yeaterday I left work about an hour early and got home before Isaiah. I decided to clean the house (like burning calories cleaning) before he got home AND do the laundry. He was so happy! Then, I baked 3 boneless, skinless chicken breast with EVOO, minced garlic and lemon juice. For sides we had whole grain brown rice and corn. It was so good! And this morning I woke up with Isaiah and made him a bacon, egg and cheese sandwich on whole wheat toast. And then I made myself 3 scrambled eggs with a little bit of cheese, 3 slices of bacon and 1 piece whole wheat toast. I must say I feel really good today! I even brought the extra chicken breast and broccoli and cheese for lunch. I am really getting pumped about beginning TurboJam again. Please send some prayers of encouragement this way!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Update...well, I guess it's always an update..




The picture above is of Diep and Stephen's Vietnamese (sp?) Wedding. Stephen's Dad is a Baptist Minister, so after the Vietnamese Wedding, we traveled teo hours north to the Christian Wedding! I'll tell you one thing, at the first wedding alone they received $3000! I have no idea how much they got at the second wedding! Anyway is was a nice time. The same photographer that did my wedding also did Dieps. http://www.leelynnphotography.com/
I've been thinking a lot about losing weight and such. I've been on my SoulCysters website (http://www.soulcyster.com/) and talking with my cousin Sarah and trying to really figure out how to get myself in gear. I'm getting closer though, I can tell. When Dr. Castillo gets back from vacation I'm going to ask her if I can go back on Metformin. I really think it will make me feel better. Isaiah and I had Ramen Noodles last night but I make them with butter and not water. Well, no more for me. I was on the thorne all night and all morning. :(
More update later. I'm thinking of taking a picture of Isaiah and I with just bra and underware...well not Isaiah in bra and underware...LoL

Monday, April 28, 2008

My Story

Sigh...So it begins....

I've always had abnormal or irregular menses since I can remember. I was a competitive dancer for 12 years of my life, and in high school was in color guard which kept me busy. I graduated highschool weighing 135 pounds at 5'6" but never having normal periods. My parents divorced my senior year of highschool and it was at thatpoint I turned to food. I remember the first time that a boyfriend pointed out that my neck looked "dirty" and I remember scrubbing it over and over to the point that it would be red but still "dirty". At one point in college I had been on my period for about 40 days and I was sleeping all the time. I finally was sick of it and called my mom. We went to my OB/GYN on a Tuesday and after she did my bloodwork (and found my HgB was 6.3) she scheduled me for a laparoscopy, D&C and hysteroscopy for two days later. After that I was feeling great and working out three days a week in my gym class at college. I had actually gotten down to 170 pounds! I was on birth control at that point as well as iron supplements 3 times a day. After leaving college ( a year and a half later) I got a job that had internet access that I would use between my customers. Bored one day I typed "dirty neck" into Google and low and behold...IR came up as well as PCOS. I felt as if I was on an episode of Mystery Diagnosis and solved my own mystery. There it was, weight gain around the belly area, male pattern hair growth, irregular or no menses...the list went on and on and in my head I was filling out a check list of my entire life. The most horrible news, however, was infertility as all I ever wanted was a large family. Enter my husband. When we met and became serious (after he expressed his wanting to have 8 kids!) I had to break the news about PCOS and explain to him from beginning to end how this could affect our lives together.

So, now I am 27 and married for exactly 6 months today. Both Isaiah and I need to lose weight but we just can't seem to get motivated. Believe it or not, I am a medical assistant for an OB/GYN office, so my doctors are always getting on me about being able to have children. At this point if I'm not on birth control, I have no period. Currently I'm taking LoEstrin24 FE for about 4more months in hopes of losing weight. I was on Metformin for a while but it seemed not to do anything but give me diarrhea. I had lost about 20 pounds prior to our wedding and had gotten down to 203 but now I'm up to 236.

It is so difficult because I'm not understanding why I'm not motivated. I want children so badly but then I eat carbs like they may disappear! I HAVE to stop eating so many bad things. Why don't I want children bad enough to stop? It is so difficult to work where I work because I will have a 20 year old in our office on her 3rd pregnancy, or girls who use abortion as a form of birth control and all you can do is keep your mouth shut and wonder why God has chosen ME to have PCOS and all these people that abuse and hurt children to be able to have no infertility problems at all. But then I think did I do this to myself? I mean losing weight is a HUGE help with PCOS, so why don't I get my butt off this couch and walk? ARG. Well, I'm signing off for now.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

My first blog...that's not on MySpace.

Hello to all. This is going to be my place to talk and life, love and the pursuit of trying to lose weight and begin a fmaily. More to come later!